Sorry keep delaying my publishing dates, and forgetting :/ sorry God..
-Camp-
Well today was last day of church youth camp, had a lot of fun pushing everyone into the pool at some point, whether it was on the afternoon or at midnight. Had lots of fun and worshipped God, but now at the end, the leader of the youth group came and talked to me about what's happened these past 2days, not doing what is right and how sad God would be if he saw my actions these 2days.
I've been distracted by a girl, she is my friend from church and I invited her to come camp cause she wasn't a strong believer and skipped some weeks at church. Well I invited her and she came 2days ago..
We're really close friends and some might even think we're dating. That was the problem, I was in a holy place with my church, and I was the one leading them all to worship God. The children that are here at church camp look up to me and, I guess they learn from my actions. Shin leader told me about this...and on the first day she said, she could feel the presence of God and the Holyspirit during the worship. However, yesterday was a complete mess. It wasn't very good at all, and I honestly didn't know..until another teacher said it wasn't very great.
2days ago, we were told to sleep early for the next day cause it was going to be big. I disobeyed, and everyone moved to the boys room and contined playing ...later a teacher came and said we should sleep or atleast sleep earlier..we said yeah, we'll sleep at 11:30..then shin teacher (leader of entire youth) found out and had a big rage...I didn't think of it much at the time cause it was normal to play games until late, it happened annually at church camp.
The next day it was real awkward..and that was the day the worship wasn't very good. It was not how we usually did it..and the teachers could feel that Gods wasn't as present as the other days. It all came down to me, I disobeyed, I had skinship with my close girl-friend and people saw and knew this.
Shin teacher, confronted me after everyone had gone except a few people and told me I was the leader. So I should be a role model. The younger kids follow me. You disobeyed me. You showed a bad view to others with public skinship which could lead to others feeling jealous or thinking its normal in church. She left it till the very end to confront me cause she believed I knew what I did wrong and would change. However it didn't happen, I was in Satans spell without myself knowing and doing things not pleasing to God's eyes..I realise now what I did wrong and Shin teacher prayed for me and I did for myself afterwards.
She believes that God gave her a message to put me as leader. My friend Lina got a message during her prayer that I will be a great leader and many things is to come for me. She believes that I am a great leader but I need to remember what God wants from me, not to go with the world and think its okay to be with girls even though it is 'normal' in the world we live in. However it could lead to bigger things and influence other people who look up to me.
So I must keep a holy image always, in my life and at church. Always. During the camp we also learnt about Joshua.
I want to be like Joshua. Doing what God wants and continuing to be a use of God even though I think I'm not recognised. I have to be patient and obey what God commands and follow through my knowledge with actions. Then he has promised to use me and I believe in that.
I believe that God will use me and has great plans ahead for me, I need to remember what God wants from me. Pray and study his living bible and remember to live for God and His glory.
Getting ready to be pushed...
Haha owned!
-Camp-
Well today was last day of church youth camp, had a lot of fun pushing everyone into the pool at some point, whether it was on the afternoon or at midnight. Had lots of fun and worshipped God, but now at the end, the leader of the youth group came and talked to me about what's happened these past 2days, not doing what is right and how sad God would be if he saw my actions these 2days.
I've been distracted by a girl, she is my friend from church and I invited her to come camp cause she wasn't a strong believer and skipped some weeks at church. Well I invited her and she came 2days ago..
We're really close friends and some might even think we're dating. That was the problem, I was in a holy place with my church, and I was the one leading them all to worship God. The children that are here at church camp look up to me and, I guess they learn from my actions. Shin leader told me about this...and on the first day she said, she could feel the presence of God and the Holyspirit during the worship. However, yesterday was a complete mess. It wasn't very good at all, and I honestly didn't know..until another teacher said it wasn't very great.
2days ago, we were told to sleep early for the next day cause it was going to be big. I disobeyed, and everyone moved to the boys room and contined playing ...later a teacher came and said we should sleep or atleast sleep earlier..we said yeah, we'll sleep at 11:30..then shin teacher (leader of entire youth) found out and had a big rage...I didn't think of it much at the time cause it was normal to play games until late, it happened annually at church camp.
The next day it was real awkward..and that was the day the worship wasn't very good. It was not how we usually did it..and the teachers could feel that Gods wasn't as present as the other days. It all came down to me, I disobeyed, I had skinship with my close girl-friend and people saw and knew this.
Shin teacher, confronted me after everyone had gone except a few people and told me I was the leader. So I should be a role model. The younger kids follow me. You disobeyed me. You showed a bad view to others with public skinship which could lead to others feeling jealous or thinking its normal in church. She left it till the very end to confront me cause she believed I knew what I did wrong and would change. However it didn't happen, I was in Satans spell without myself knowing and doing things not pleasing to God's eyes..I realise now what I did wrong and Shin teacher prayed for me and I did for myself afterwards.
She believes that God gave her a message to put me as leader. My friend Lina got a message during her prayer that I will be a great leader and many things is to come for me. She believes that I am a great leader but I need to remember what God wants from me, not to go with the world and think its okay to be with girls even though it is 'normal' in the world we live in. However it could lead to bigger things and influence other people who look up to me.
So I must keep a holy image always, in my life and at church. Always. During the camp we also learnt about Joshua.
I want to be like Joshua. Doing what God wants and continuing to be a use of God even though I think I'm not recognised. I have to be patient and obey what God commands and follow through my knowledge with actions. Then he has promised to use me and I believe in that.
I believe that God will use me and has great plans ahead for me, I need to remember what God wants from me. Pray and study his living bible and remember to live for God and His glory.
Getting ready to be pushed...
Haha owned!
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