#19

Been 10 days..since I've updated >\\<;; sigh, busy at school...work...church...

Well recently at church we talked about Spiritual War. Our souls are constantly at war with Satan. Instead of being arrogant and going head on with us and being really obvious he is cunning and sly. He manipulates our world and controls everything. Media is controlled by Satan, and changes our thoughts. The world and God's standards are different. It was originally Gods commandments that was received over 2000 years ago. These standards have been changed and things such as gay marriage is legalised and pre-maritial sex is seen as normal. Its commanded in the bible not to do these things but we are drifted away from this and forget what pleases God. This is a constant war between our souls as we may know that we aren't supposed to do, but we do these things knowingly.

To beat this constant war, we must first know what we are against. We must be educated what we are up against, and then we must know how to fight back. To build up our weapon and fight back against Satan is to train. How do you train?! You need to build a stronger relationship with God and be stronger spiritually! Pray. Spend time with God. Ask for mental strength, to be more bold and wise.
We as God's disciples need to take responsibility to be able to overcome and win the fight.

We also talked about fasting, to stop something you love and enjoy. We are stuck in this world, and are attached to worldly things. Things such as, games, music, girls, sleep..etc.
We also need to overcome this obstacle of addiction...but to strengthen ourselves a step at a time, we can fast. Give up something for a length of time and focus on God. But to fast effectively, we should fast something that is valuable to us...something that is taking over our daily lives so that we may have the chance to focus on God.

I wanna challenge you guys to try remember what pleases God and follow through with your actions. I also want you to try fasting something. Something important to you that has become an addiction ...let it go and seek only God. He will reward you and bless you.

Have a blessed evening :)


*what I've been up to...
Wendys birthday tonight :) some photos-


The boys&wendy:)


Skytower at night:) had dinner there! #fortuna buffet restaurant

#9

Sorry keep delaying my publishing dates, and forgetting :/ sorry God..

-Camp-

Well today was last day of church youth camp, had a lot of fun pushing everyone into the pool at some point, whether it was on the afternoon or at midnight. Had lots of fun and worshipped God, but now at the end, the leader of the youth group came and talked to me about what's happened these past 2days, not doing what is right and how sad God would be if he saw my actions these 2days.

I've been distracted by a girl, she is my friend from church and I invited her to come camp cause she wasn't a strong believer and skipped some weeks at church. Well I invited her and she came 2days ago..

We're really close friends and some might even think we're dating. That was the problem, I was in a holy place with my church, and I was the one leading them all to worship God. The children that are here at church camp look up to me and, I guess they learn from my actions. Shin leader told me about this...and on the first day she said, she could feel the presence of God and the Holyspirit during the worship. However, yesterday was a complete mess. It wasn't very good at all, and I honestly didn't know..until another teacher said it wasn't very great.

2days ago, we were told to sleep early for the next day cause it was going to be big. I disobeyed, and everyone moved to the boys room and contined playing ...later a teacher came and said we should sleep or atleast sleep earlier..we said yeah, we'll sleep at 11:30..then shin teacher (leader of entire youth) found out and had a big rage...I didn't think of it much at the time cause it was normal to play games until late, it happened annually at church camp.

The next day it was real awkward..and that was the day the worship wasn't very good. It was not how we usually did it..and the teachers could feel that Gods wasn't as present as the other days. It all came down to me, I disobeyed, I had skinship with my close girl-friend and people saw and knew this.

Shin teacher, confronted me after everyone had gone except a few people and told me I was the leader. So I should be a role model. The younger kids follow me. You disobeyed me. You showed a bad view to others with public skinship which could lead to others feeling jealous or thinking its normal in church. She left it till the very end to confront me cause she believed I knew what I did wrong and would change. However it didn't happen, I was in Satans spell without myself knowing and doing things not pleasing to God's eyes..I realise now what I did wrong and Shin teacher prayed for me and I did for myself afterwards.

She believes that God gave her a message to put me as leader. My friend Lina got a message during her prayer that I will be a great leader and many things is to come for me. She believes that I am a great leader but I need to remember what God wants from me, not to go with the world and think its okay to be with girls even though it is 'normal' in the world we live in. However it could lead to bigger things and influence other people who look up to me.

So I must keep a holy image always, in my life and at church. Always. During the camp we also learnt about Joshua.
I want to be like Joshua. Doing what God wants and continuing to be a use of God even though I think I'm not recognised. I have to be patient and obey what God commands and follow through my knowledge with actions. Then he has promised to use me and I believe in that.

I believe that God will use me and has great plans ahead for me, I need to remember what God wants from me. Pray and study his living bible and remember to live for God and His glory.



Getting ready to be pushed...


Haha owned!

#6

**Zzz no internet ...didn't get to post on Sunday! :(

Missed out again yesterday :/ but yeah, however. Saturday...had work with dad, then work at Daruma:) finished at 2:30 and had lunch at work w/ Jasmine after our shifts.
Bussed home...and I practiced elec guitar solos for church camp; 빛 되신 주 and 모두드리리. Then yeehh just chill.

I'm at church camp now and been pretty good so far! Practice went allgoods and yeh~ in bed right now...after a long day...haha lots to pack for instruments and food! Had a good dinner and good talk with God too! Getting to know the people here, they're allgoods:) met new friend who plays classic guitar, 이준호 :)

anyways, Goodnight and hope God bless us for following the days :) He is so great!♥

#4

Missed out yesterday :/ I was ...practicing for this arts festival auditions...practicing the first electric guitar's solos for 'Your grace is enough' cause our usual player didn't want to partake :/ so yeah, stayed up late learning the solo part and trying to lead and sing simultaneously :( so no #3 blog >< sorry...to myself for not being dedicated.

Anyways, moving on. Today I had third day of practice for upcoming church camp and for the arts festival. My church worship team is participating in the competition festival thing~ and yeah...made some modifications to our original way of playing Your grace is enough, and with me playing elec now...amd leading. Well yeah, things went ok...had kfc for lunch, Tony was so happy hahahah he's in love with it ohmy...
Had the audition and think we did alrighty^^ hopefully get into finals and do a song that is way more intense.

One rant..ohmy this festival is christian event and yeah, its about worshipping God but it feels so much like a competition :/ like everyone is so intense...like man, chill...it's all for Gods glory! And they say...we are gonna sing a song. A song. Not worship...hm >< man...what do they want to achieve from it? Gain the prize money? Is that why...but yeah, one big reason why my team didn't want to do it at all..but eventually we decided to cause it was a great opportunity and it felt like God was leading us to do this:) anyways, hopefully did well enough to be through to finals!

Well, then we continued practice for camp, with John's guidance and feedback to the team. What we needed work on, fix it, and master it :) well finished 30or so songs completely, all ready for camp hehe.

Yeaahhh~had intense prayer session where everyone prayed going around in a circle. Like out-loud prayers about anything, was good as!:)

Our main song for camp is 'Jesus Generation - 천관웅' a worship about...this generation and how we are the new leaders, relates to the camps theme on 'Christian life' Check it out!

Well, still praying for church, for the camp. For my teacher who is organising everything for us.
Praying for family, my brother to be safe while in Hongkong and Korea.
Praying for the other students at my church, to attend camp and meet God, starting with worship :)
Praying for my friends, to also meet God and encounter his grace and love and everything! To keep their faith and hope :)
These are my prayers right now and hope you can pray too when you're free!

God bless and Goodnight!
(So tired..zzzzZzZzzZz) hehe



Prac prac:)

#2

Today was the second practice session for my upcoming church camp. We finished practicing all 36 songs in two days so I was pleased. It wasn't fully up to 100%standard but we have another session on Friday or maybe two sessions more to perfect everything with John (youth leader) there too!

But another event is coming up, well another opportunity I would say. A Christian arts festival/talent thing! Our youth worship team hasn't decided yet if we should go...there are mixed feelings at the moment between many members. Some believe that it is too competiton like and to glorify God...there shouldn't be such restrictions, but in another perspective they believe that it will be good opportunity as long as God remains the centre of attention throughout everything. Our team is excellent musically, and we even took part in a special performance ft. Funtwo, praising the Lord. It felt a bit of a performance like...but we all strived to look unto God and only him during the worship...and now we have another dilemma whether we take part in the Talent festival..
It is my last year being in Auckland and some think we should make the most of it now...some believe that it is just to show off, so...many different perspectives on the same matter...but we continue praying as a team to find out what Gods purpose is..

I prayed tonight and believe I got a message from God. A message that God should be the center of everything, focus the performance on God and to glorify Him, and Him only! I believe in this and agree too...so right now, I think it'll be good to go, to participate as well as worship.

Other thoughts that influence right now...this girl is there and yeah influences right now :/ she's someone I look up to and she's partaking in this event...I want to talk to her and ask...but we're not very close, just friendly from afar >< ...anyways that's whats on my mind.

Prayers for tonight:

1) for my team, they're busy with many preparstions but I believe God will help us overcome th physical obstacles and will put our mind and soul to Him. Focus everything we have to glorify God.

2) for a teacher/missionary that takes care of our team, she's also busy and I pray to strengthen her and bless her for the continuous support she has provided towards the church and team.

3) for a youth leader, John, he has upcoming tests and hasn't been able to attend the practice sessions recently. Pray for him to do well in tests and bless him for support to the team regardless of his exam timetables and absence.

4) for myself, I want to have a clear vision, to focus only on God...I feel not 100%sure right now, how to act..I am the leader and I need to be sorted first before being able to help others...I pray that I can see him as the centre and never to forget that he is our shepherd, our leader in life.

-Bible verse from the Lord during my prayers:

Philippians 2:13
"For it is God who works in you to will and to act accordingly to his good purpose"

Matthew 6:33
"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well"

Believe that everything that's happening is Gods purpose, whether it is good or bad. It is all for God's good purpose as long as you accept him and allow him to act in your life!

God bless :) pray for me please, and goodnight ♥



Practice ft. Funtwo



Food from todays practice :)
Thankful for food today Lord♥



Friend is so wonderful, praying for me during complicated and hard times♥ God bless her!

#1

Dear Lord,

You are #1 in my life.
I confess now Lord, hear my prayer and please allow me to remember that you are #1 priority.
You've recently heard my friend Lina's prayer, she prays to you for you to help me as well. I also pray and I believe you will use me as your leader and bring miracles in my life through You. 
And please remind me to always talk with you through prayer and to share it with the world through this blog, so others may also be inspired and that they have a hope of a life with you for eternity in heaven. Also give me the strength to update this blog everyday for your glory, all for your glory Lord!

I pray in the holy name of Jesus Christ our saviour,
Amen.


: all for Your glory Lord.